I was warmly snuggled on the couch with my cat watching the movie “While You Were Sleeping”, and at the closing scene, Sandra’s character narrates the following:
"Thank goodness my father was right. Life doesn't always turn out the way you plan."
My body tingled from my crown, down my spine, and to my toes. This had me thinking about my own life. Did my life turn out the way I planned? Yes and No. On Christmas Eve, a few nights before this, I learned my youngest nephew, 20 years old, became a dad. He’s just a baby himself. I am happy for him, but I was never given a child of my own. For a few days, I felt a heavy feeling on my soul and I didn’t know why. It was after watching the movie when my tears finally showed its ugly head. I hate feeling like this. I’m a positive thinking, happy person. This is not me. Why am I feeling this? Becoming a Great Aunt made me realize that even though I’ve accepted God’s plan for me, two of things I’ve most wanted since I was a little girl, I never received. And it saddened me very deeply.
I’ve always tried to be a good person, to follow in the teachings of Christ, but like any human with free will, I’ve faltered and learned from it. So, why wasn’t I given them? What is it about me which denies me two of my deepest desires? Am I not good enough? Am I not meant to have them in this lifetime? Why? These are the questions I ask God as I cry and look up Heaven seeking answers. In his own way, he showed me what he’s given me in these loving thoughts.
I’ve asked for a house: I received a condo of my own. (I wanted a house)
I’ve asked for companionship: I have my cat, who is a loving creature. (I wanted a husband and child)
I’ve asked to stop being so shy and stop being a doormat to others: I’ve had friends come and go from my life who’ve taught me to be stronger and to find my voice.
I’ve asked to be creative: I’ve rediscovered my lifetime love of stories, now publishing my own for the world. (I wanted to be a singer and songwriter)
Slowly, with each thought, my tears dried and my sadness left me. He was right. I’ve always been given what I asked with no more than what I could handle. I received my desires, if not in the way I wanted.
The next day, I woke with one thought in my head, and it was the above movie quote. I did a search for this quote to see what’s behind it. I tried to ignore it, but it pestered me. “Okay, okay, I’ll look into it”. HE is trying to cement his message for me. What did I find? I found an article written by JD, on what he learned by Tony Robbins. I now have other ways to look at this, from a better perspective, a happier one.
You may remember Tony from his infomercials and self-help books: Unlimited Power, Unleash the Power Within and Awaken the Giant Within.
JD’s post summarizes a few things from Tony’s video: Create a New Story.
Happiness = Progress
Growing and Giving make us come alive
Our Blueprint is the Story We Have in Our Head
What happens when life doesn’t match our blueprint
Change your life, or change your blueprint
What 3 things happen when we change our blueprint
How Sometimes Failing to Get Your Goal, Helps You Fulfill Your Destiny
Link to JD’s full article here. Give it a read yourself, it’s thought-provoking and it will have you thinking things a little differently.
“We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” – Joseph Campbell
After reading his article, I now know I did learn. I have grown through my heart breaks, the challenging times I didn’t think I’d recover from: the taunts and cheating and selfish people who passed through my life, and finally, the financial loss and gain. I look back and think what if I have been given exactly what I wanted? I wouldn’t have grown spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. I may not have had the time or the desire to write and publish.
I LOVE writing and publishing.
I LOVE that I am a stronger person who has the strength to stand on her own, to not be afraid to travel alone, to discover my voice.
I’ve learned many things and continue to do so.
I love that when people sad or down, they know they can come to me for comfort and healing. It’s a trend in my life, but it’s my destiny to show love, to teach others to love, to show kindness and show others how to do so. I’m good at it. I’m good at bringing people together. When I give this to others, seeing them smile again and pay it forward, I feel good. Really good down to my soul.
If I hadn’t learned through experience, I wouldn’t be able to connect to others who are feeling the same thing. I wouldn’t know how to heal them.
Sometimes failing to get your goal helps you fulfill your destiny. Tony Robbins
What is your destiny? Has your blueprint changed? Think about my last paragraph, at what I feel is my destiny while on earth. When I don’t follow this, I feel heavy. When I do follow my destiny, I feel light. What’s your gift to share? What do you give or share with others which lifts your spirit so high, you feel like you can float right up to Heaven itself?